Sadly, last week Tom and I lost our baby❤️I have really been struggling with it this past week. After thinking we would keep this journey private, I felt it was something we should share because so many women have walked this path before me and not many people talk about the emotional toll things like this might take and how best to navigate this kind of grief as a couple, family or as individuals.
I feel I can’t share all the sparkly things we do online and not be honest about some of the struggles. I share my journey with depression and anxiety on the Pretty Depressed Podcast and even though I feel great about the tools I have learnt, this past week has been incredibly heavy and I have been in a huge battle internally with my brain which has been unkind and not helpful.. feeling moments of shame, confusion and fear of the ‘next time’ we get pregnant possibly being clouded by this experience. Statistically this is a very common experience but sometimes logic and emotions aren’t aligned. 💔
If you have been following me over the past few weeks, life has had many great moments, a family cruise, birthday parties, trying on wedding dresses and nesting at home… but also, many moments of bursting in to tears, wearing a diaper hoping no one would notice and avoiding alone time to prevent spiraling. I often tend to go into distraction mode till I am ready to create space to process trauma.
We will share more about this when I am in a better place and after I get some professional help. I will share the journey of healing because I have a responsibility to take what I learn in this next chapter and make those tools available to others if they unfortunately have to walk this path too. Our condolences to anyone who has had these experiences. 💔
A problem shared is a problem halved and it sounds like there is a lot of people who walk this path behind closed doors. Hopefully we can create some good and helpful dialogue in the wake of this heartbreak ❤️🩹
Much love,
Kim and Tom
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